the things i wanted to write about today but didn't
I'll be real with you all.
Today's post has been drafted and restarted about 3 times. I wanted to talk about how much I love tinkering while also resisting the desire to tinker because it often consumes my whole day.
Sure, I could time block it... but when I enter tinker mode, time awareness goes out the window. For example: my first time playing Sid Meier's Civilization V, I played 14 hours straight without feeling tired, hungry, or needing to use the restroom.
If I let myself tinker with customizing my blog, I'll have missed my daily blog deadlines without even realizing. (At least, that's the fear, whether it's irrational or rational, is unclear) Missing my blogpost because I got distracted is currently unacceptable. I'm on Day 36 and only see myself stopping if I am sick, needing rest, or some emergency arises.
(Upon writing this, however, I have found an opportunity window: write the blog post early and then spend the rest of the day tinkering on customization. The problem I encounter now is that I prefer writing at night... so maybe not an opportunity window? Back to the drawing board.)
Then, I wanted to write about a pattern I'm realizing about myself: if I'm not willing to commit 5-10 minutes a day on a project or goal, then that goal is to be dismissed and explored at a later time. This means most of the projects listed on the project page need to be archived and updated with active projects I'm more committed to.
Is daily engagement too harsh of a parameter? Maybe. But 5-10 minutes doesn't seem like a lot of effort, and if I'm not willing to dedicate that daily, it reflects to me as the project's priority has lessened.
But ultimately, I am most excited about sharing this little doodle I made and posted on my second blog.
Words are hard today. That's ok, I'll let them rest a little.
Write more tomorrow!
Thanks for being here.
Sincerely,
Nadine ♥