it's my blog, I can boast if i want to
No matter how hard I try to spell apocalypse without the aid of autocorrect, I seem to fuck it up every time.
Context for those who are unaware: I have been conducting this personal 'project' of writing down my dreams every single morning since February 20th, 2025. It's April 20th, but first, Happy Easter to those who celebrate, and secondly, happy 4/20 for those who partake, and thirdly, it is now 2 months of writing my dreams down without fail every morning.
I'm getting sidetracked here, but my point is, I have had many apocalyptic dreams tracked within these 2 months. Even before I started dream journaling daily, I still documented dreams that had an impact on me. That brings me back to the frustration: how many attempts of writing the word 'apocalypse' down before it sticks in my memory? I sure have a lot of zombie dreams, radioactive aftermath dreams, dwindling population dreams, etc....
As a way to console myself, I tell myself everyone must have a word or two that is impossible to spell correctly on the first try or without assistance. Right? Right, we'll just keep telling ourselves that so we can get on with our day.
Before I started writing this blog today, I sat myself down and opened Obsidian. I challenged myself to write only to myself. The boundaries were: write as much as you can, flirt the line between subconscious and consciousness. What does that mean? Well, because of my daily blogging challenge, I believe I have gotten good with the momentum of typing away.
I just pulled up TypeRacer, out of curiousity, to see what my WPM was. 131 WPM on my first try, pretty good.
Not to brag, but I taught myself how to type at the age of 7 years old. By the time 'computer class' was implemented in my high school, I had obliterated everyone's minds by reaching 180 wpm to 191 wpm on average. The teacher was dumbstruck, and a lot of the time, people started snickering at how loud my typing was whenever we had any typing assignments in-class.
What was I doing when I finished the assignment and while everyone was slowly clacking away, maybe hitting 15-20 wpm? I had a separate browser1 open, on my BlogSpot, journaling all my feels and thoughts on a public blog. The circle of life, hah. I still have access to that blog today, though it is privated for my eyes only. Yeeesh, the things I blogged about then. I'm sure I'll feel the same way about these posts in a decade from now, lol.
Sure, I have lost my insane speeds, but I also am just over a month of daily blogging. By the high school years, I had been blogging, chatting in forums, and playing video games for a good chunk of my everyday. I have no doubt that I'll get there, typing faster and faster and faster, to get my points across and move onto another location to mark my existence through typing words out there, too.
Not that I have any real reason to strive back to 180+ WPM... 180-190 WPM is pretty ridiculous. I don't remember what the typing prompts were back then, but I'm sure they were pretty simple. Something like 'The quick brown fox jumps over the lazy dog' simple? I won't have the same speeds when I'm contemplating, drafting, and editing away. Speed isn't something that I aspire to, anyways. It's just a humble brag and also my own way to witness myself.
It's my blog, anyways, so I can boast and I can reminisce if I want to.
Whoa -- I decided to look up the fastest WPM and apparently there is a teenager who has hit 305 WPM on a QWERTY keyboard. Consider my self-esteem smashed. But that's another lesson I'm uncovering in real-time as I write this blog post -- whatever you think you're good at, someone is better.
I don't say this in a self-defeating way. I say this as a reminder that comparing yourself can often be a losing game.
You don't have to sign up for a game that may hurt your own feelings. You decide which games you participate in, and the reason why I looked it up was not to see how I fared amongst the best of the best, but to humble myself, assuming that there was a savant and genius out there who would be that much more impressive.
(Okay, but like if it was 250 WPM, I would have assigned myself a new challenge to get my typing into shape to surpass the current world record. Mostly joking. My curiosity often gets the better of me, that's the biggest reason I looked.)
Welp, that marks all the time I have for the blog post today.
I hope this was entertaining?.... Or useful... or... helpful for you?
Thanks for being here!
Sincerely,
Nadine ♥
Eventually, the school implemented a firewall to prevent students from accessing sites that were not approved. I don't remember how, but I circumvented it so I could get on GaiaOnline and my BlogSpot. When there's a will, there's a way. Lol.↩