i miss the small web!
for the few who visited this blog, sorry for going mia.
i was experimenting with many indie blogging platforms, and after i found out that the discovery feed was off-limits to free users here, i decided to take some time away from bear blog.
apparently, that was false info, and the discovery feature is still available to us freebies??
my confusion still stands, but i figure i spend some time writing here anyway.
i made it to day 108 of daily blogging before a storm hit and a power outage prevented me from continuing the streak.
i've also returned to mainstream socials to live-stream and sell my offerings.
while my return has been generous, both in community and business, i miss the spark of the small web. the more time i spend in big web, the core of what makes me me becomes more and more diluted.
now that i have experienced the web revival & small web spaces, completely separated from the big web and mainstream socials for several months, returning to the big web was overwhelming.
like a small town girl going to NYC -- the sheer amount of people everywhere was shocking. cars constantly honking, rats scurrying, unsavory smells smelling -- it was both wondrous and overstimulating.
the influence of the masses is quite enigmatic, a seeping into the subconscious happens when you spend too much time with everyone else and not enough time with yourself.
a trojan horse comes in the form of a 'well-meaning' brand, person, colleague, or friend -- subtly prompting you to conform and perform as they do.
now the above is only one of my interpretations of the big web, and probably dismissible by elders who didn't grow up on the internet or by more healthy, well-adjusted people.
but truly, i felt like i was losing my marbles all over again (i just got them back!!!) by spending too much time in the public-facing big web and not enough time in my sanctuary small web.
when the internet was small, there was magic everywhere you looked. creativity and unique voices were cherished and displayed proudly. that's what hooked me onto the idea of the digital world in the first place.
and now that i know it still exists, being tended to by stewards who deserve the mightiest of awards, tucked away in the crevices and corners of the internet, i must remember to retreat here often.
i won't blame myself too much for my absence, as i'm new to the small web this year and finding balance is a forever game.
just simply here to say i miss the small web, that i promise i'll be around more often, and i love that you all exist and keep the dreamiest parts of the web alive.
i am under the belief that everyone should have a personal blog but it requires a courageous and even rebellious nature to start and upkeep one. if you have one, please know you are my type of hero.
thanks for being here.
sincerely,
Nadine ♥